funny.

LMAO.

that's all i'm gonna do today.
ya'll are fuckin hilarious.
i truly hope the entertainment was worth it.
you fucked yourself real good this time.

imma sit back and let my main bitch karma work her magic.
:D

do onto others as you would want done onto you.always remember that.
hahaha have a nice day :D

idc.

i really just stopped caring :D
i love how people THINK they can outsmart me.
please, i know all your tricks & i've prob. already used them.
i know exactly what you're doing.
and i swear to god, i'm not allowin it anymore.
it's time to be the bitch i was in high school.
you're prob. not gonna like me then.
oh wellll. don't fuck w/ me then.
mission starting in ...
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haha it's officially grimey season bitch!

cute.

amor.

ok so this is the song i was talking about in my previous post...

it's called manantial de amor. if you look on youtube it's by binomio de oro. THAT'S NOT THE VERSION I WANT!

what i wanted to share w/ you all are the beautiful lyrics. they're so romantic. if someone dedicated this song to me it would be the cutest thing ever! i would prob. cry my eyes out in happiness lol.

mi vida todas las mananas siempre me
levanto pensando en tu amor
mi reina ya casi no duermo
siempre me desvelo pensando en tu amor.

which means

my life every morning i always
wake up thinking of your love
my queen with almost no sleep
i am always awake thinking of your love

awwww. tear!

today.

so today my mom was asking me if anythings been going on w/ me lately. lol i thought it was funny cus she knows everything that's been going on w/ me. yet someone said i posted something on my facebook that made me seem like i was on the verge on committing suicide. really? i mean i know i been havin kinda sad shit lately but if you know me you know i would never do anything like that. i love my life too much & the people in it. most the times my statuses be song lyrics anyways. which brings me to another point.. someone posted a question on my formspring that was like "wat meds are you on cus ur crazyy. no boy likes crazy girls". LET ME MAKE MYSELF CLEAR ONE TIME AND ONE TIME ONLY - whether or not i'm going through shit that has me makin statuses that sound sad or w/e is no one's business but my own. i'm not writing them to make you comment on it or ask me what's wrong. i don't care about your opinion i just simply write. reason why i'm on this blogspot in the first place. i'll admit i do have temper tamtrums that even i would be like bitch wtf but unless you know everything that's going on in my life, you have no room to say shit. plus, everyone knows i'm on my happy tip wayyyyyyyy more than my sad one. i'm sorry i'm a girl w/ feelings and alotta estrogen that gets emotional way too much for her own good. it comes w/ having a vagina. get over it! don't worry about me and continue to do w/e u do in your life.... which obv. isn't much since you feel the need to ask me anonymous questions on my formspring. i guess you think you're better than me? idk but quit that shit cus i will let you know that 1. you're not. 2. i don't give a fuck what you have to say. and 3. you're probably a simple minded individual w/ nothing better to do then pry themselves in other people's business. here's a tip - get a hobby. read a book or something. enrich your vocabulary and stop wasting your life worrying about others. thank you! :D

okayyyy so now that i said that lol i think i should write something positive.

i FINALLY got my license today lmao. i waited long enough. =/ hey i know what you're prob. thinkin.. you're 18 w/ no license. what a waste of time. but idgaf what you say, i was scared of taking the road test lol i sucked at parking & three point turns. BUT NOW, i'm a professionall. and i'm not the only who was slacking. i know someone who's older than me and doesn't even have their permit. :O

now i need your help!

i was looking at my old myspace music page & i can't find the cd anywhere w/ the song i uploaded to my music page. and that sucks because i LOVE that song! i just can't download it cus idk who sings it and idk how to download songs from myspace. i thought i had a program but it was a complete fail and waste of download. so if anyone knows how to download from myspace or has a program that actually works, please let me know! :D thank you.

ahh... just the thoughts of a complex individual. one day at a time.

cold.

I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

love.

love
–noun
1.a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

forgive me if i'm wrong but it takes alot to be in love. i've heard of love at first sight but let's be real.. there is NO way you can love someone based off appearance alone. personality makes up a big chunk of loving someone. i've never been in love even though i was in a relationship for a year. it really bothers me when i hear girls and boys use the term "love" so loosely. it's like they call each other b/f and g/f for like 2 days and they're already calling each other husband and wife and saying i love you regularly. 2 days later they break up and now they're saying fuck love. seriously, sit your little ass down, read a book, go to school and get your mind right. you're no where near being in love and there's no way you can give up on it before you even experience it. i know that kids are doing things wayy faster than i was when i was 14 and 15, so i'm not saying that they can't develop feelings for one another but i'm pretty sure "love" isn't it. in my opinion love is being there for that person through everything, putting them before yourself just to see them with a smile on their face. it's going out on several dates and getting to know each other better. it's going to meet the family even though you don't want to but you do it because it'll make the other happy. love is a very complex thing and there are several types of love. the love i have for a friend or family member are completely opposite of the type of love i'll have for a significant other. so please don't misuse the word in the sense of meaning and how soon you say it.

again, this is my opinion because this is MY blog. :)

escuela.

ahh it is tuesday isn't it :( on the good side i get to see some friends today. on the bad side i have school. yuck! sad face i'm really gonna miss mo's watch. it was good to me while i had it tho.. made many boys jealous it wasn't on their wrist lol. (continuing my blog while i'm at school)

okay so i'm at school now & i had a jamaican beef patty & a double chocolate chip frap from starbucks. i also bought some chocolate for someone special. soo i go to give it to them even though it's a little melted from the blazing heat & they don't even appreciate it. wtf. like seriously that's money that could've been in my pocket. ANYWAYS, we walked in silence and left w/out a hug. lovely.

you know i'm getting really sick of how you treat me. it's like you say you like me yet you do absolutely NOTHING to show it. i constantly show my feelings in more ways than one and i honestly think that i'm just gonna stop altogether. i'm a good person and i deserve someone who's gonna treat me the way i should be treated. i tried to overlook it several times but it's a constant let down. i guess what i'm saying is i know you don't have feelings for me the way i do for you. that's straight w. me but damn atleast be honest w. me.

my day.

so today was quite interesting. i woke up around 8 or so, did some laundry & stripped my wall free of the old wallpaper. took a shower & got ready to go to the mall w/ anika. we left around 1:45 and had a little run around w/ getting on the road but it was fun. the aim was to look for an outfit for the wiz khalifa concert :D first stop, cajun grill & panda express. yummyyy. ran into one of her old friends "snoopy" who says he's going to invest in turtlenecks so that when he looks for a job his neck tats won't show. lol then we saw the FINEST boy w. his mom & we both kinda said somethin to each other & the boy smiled and said somethin to his mom. ahh! embarassing. lol anyways forever 21 had like nothin. -__- which is weird.... their website is full of shit but once u go in the store it's like they have NOTHING! either that OR i'm just too impatient to go thru shit while other shoppers are around. i swear i needa just have the mall to myself one day w. an unlimited budget! yess, i think that will do. anyways oh yeaa me & her got into a veryyy heated conversation about some person who we strongly dislike and who feels like girl code doesn't apply to her. sike. anyways enough attention to her.... yo i swear it's the little stores that have cute shit. i got my heels from a'gaci, jeans from tj maxxx and top from marshalls. cami i already had from forever 21. and purse i already had from i THINK charlotte russe? anyways came back to my house & introduced her to the parents & they loved her immediately :D yummyyy queso frito and carne asada lol (inside joke) sat & talked about stupid shit but it meant alot to have someone there for me. i truly love her and i can't wait til we chill more.

ashley.

so this is my cousin ashley, i really look up to her. when we were little she would always pretend she was like the leader & her name was ms. (somethin w. a big booty) lol & she would always kick me out the room lol. it was all in good fun tho. she always gives me the best advice and always listens to me when i just want to vent. she let's me know who she approves of and doesn't & i love that. it may not be what i want to hear sometimes but i know she wouldn't bring it up if it wasn't a real issue. i remember when she was like 12 or 13 and i was 8 we went somewhere on vacation & she did my hair chonga style lol. you know when you take the two pieces of hair and pretty much glue it to your head & then tie it in the back & let your hair down? lol well that's how my hair was lol. i have so many memories w. her & i can't wait to make more. i love her sooo much she's like a sister to me! love you dear!

care.

i'm done w. being the nice girl. i'm done w. showing love and affection to people who show me none what so ever. i'm done trying to make things right when things are wrong. basically, i'm gonna sit back, relax & not give a fuck about how things turn out from now on. everything happens for a reason right? i'm gonna stop pouring my heart out just so it can be fucked w. personally, i'm wayyy too nice to some people and i don't deserve to be treated like dirt. i've been kicked when i've been down & recently i've been thrown to the curb. but it's okay cus i have me, myself & i. & i would never treat myself like that. i'm actually wayyy happier when i'm by myself. i don't have to deal w. constant nagging and annoying voices. ahh i'm gonna love this! :)

here's to a stress free, drama free summer :P

world cup.

i've never really been one to follow the crowd so i can't seem to comprehend why everyone wants to jump on the world cup bandwagon all of a sudden. i mean 8/10 of you don't even watch soccer on the regular but because everyone's talking about it you're gonna watch it just to make comments about it so that you can feel important. newsflash: it's not a popularity contest. there's no penalty against you if you don't watch it. i'm seeing statuses about it like go team this go team that. please cut the crap. i know only one person who's been truly excited to watch this game & who is a fan of sports in general. everyone else sticks to one thing, football or basketball. who knows, maybe 4/10 actually watch soccer but bottom line is the majority of you don't. so cut the crap and stick to being yourself. it looks far better being an original then being a copycat.

friends.

i don't have a lot of friends because i don't trust too many people. i've come to realize that no matter how good a person i am, people are still going to talk negatively about me. it's funny though because i learn things about myself i never knew. the culprits are mostly females who have a brain the size of an almond and who love to gossip and create fictitious stories in order to gain attention from other mindless individuals. since my first year of college i've gained & lost "friends" and i really couldn't be happier. God has a funny way of letting me know who's real & who's not. the two females who i can honestly say are 100% real are my girls lyn & kim. through all of our fights & arguements, we've never let that get the best of us & always talked out our problems. they've been better friends to me than anyone i've ever known & continue to show me the true meaning of friendship through countless ways. they both put a smile on my face when i'm in the darkest of moods & are always willing to give me the truthful advice i need but don't want to hear. they're not afraid to tell me like it is and i love them so much for it. i couldn't ask for better bestfriends. i love you both so very much.

about me.

alot of people have been talking about me recently. some say i look like a bitch w. a stuck up attitude and that i think i'm better than everyone. however, none of these people have sat down & had a conversation w. me. you never know about someone unless they tell you so here it is.

in a nutshell i'm just a eighteen yr. old girl who likes to smile, laugh, have fun, shop, party, etc. - pretty much the same activities as any other teenager.

i would do anything for my family because i know they'll always be there for me no matter what ( yes i include my bestfriends in my family ). i get along w/ guys way better simply because they don't bitch, nag & go crazy about stupid bullshit. i love old people & kids - there's so much to learn from them if you really pay attention.

hmm, i've been livin in hollywood pretty much all my life. not exactly the funnest place but it's home to me and idc what you have to say.

i like to joke around alot and sometimes people take my jokes for being mean but i would never intentionally put someone down or make fun of them. for those who think that i'm truly sorry.

i cry at the stupidest things because i'm a girl and i have emotions. it's pretty rare that you'll see me crying though. when you do just know it's something real serious and i probably won't want to talk about it w/ you.

i don't usually let people in on my real feelings because it's come back to bite me in the ass one too many times. i don't tell my secrets and i don't talk about my private life anymore. this blog is pretty much what i'm allowing you to see. so before you think you can use it against me, please, this is nothing & i pity your idiotic thoughts :)

until i can think of more, this is all :)